Why do I fear...

Letting go.
What a hard thing to do.
Start again.
What a scary thing to think about.

As my millenium ends, it feels as if my past is dying...
I never knew I had to live all these years to get here.
At this point.
At this crossroad.

But if I look back, I can see and understand...
...this mysterious way my Father dealt with me.
I was prepared to get to this point.
And now it's expected that I'll jump.
It's called faith... again.

...but you know what...
I don't regret my last jump.
It feels as if... as I'm jumping I'm going higher.
I'm climbing closer to my dreams.

So why do I fear?
Why do I care, if it's all taken care of...
And at this point when my hopes are low...
...when my believe is weak...
There's only one thing I'm holding on to...
I do believe in my jump!

And I'm not scared of the future...
I'm scared of myself, as I walk to my jumping point.
I know I need to trust.
Trust in the one that will catch me when I fall.
Trust in the one that will protect me on my path.

So why do I fear?
If I'm just a human reacting to my Father's call...
...and for no matter how hard I'll try...
...He'd still be God, He'd still be more powerfull.

So why do I fear...?

To:Mor
By:Mor - 15 Aug. 1999